end of the beginning.

yay, finally the proteomics test is over! it was kinda terrible, but probably not comparable to the mental trauma h3 chem ppl get, so i shall not whine (further)!

anyway, first and foremost, thanks to everyone for making my 18th bday a very memorable one! i still remember my first most memorable birthday, which was in scotland. during the camp, we went for a little walk up the knoll to some really ancient ruins. it was in the evening. over two hundred people were making their way up that small hill, to the little area that was surrounded by 4 eroded stone walls. there, the scout leader (it was a scout camp, btw) announced to the rest that they would be singing the birthday song for a person in the sub-camp. and before i knew it, i heard two hundred voices ringing in my ears and calling my name. i nearly cried that very moment. a few days later, when i received an email in scotland from my best friend who wished me happy bday, i actually did cry... but now, at the age of 18, i'm not as emotional as i used to be. but i still appreciate all that you guys have done for me, be it the cake, the kama sutra (yes i will read it, cy, but practising is another matter >.<), a shirt, a weird-looking keychain, citadels, or a simple 'happy bday' (or 'happy belated bday')!

made me realise that although i dun get to see and talk extensively to most of my friends, they will always be somewhere out there to help... seeing so many familiar faces around can be quite overwhelming, but it has a very strangely warm feeling to it... and it's just really comforting.

perhaps one other thing that i have managed to get back after my bday was a friendship which i thought i had lost last year. ever had the thought that the person you wanted to love might just reject your advances and stop being even a platonic friend? well, i did have a taste of that, and, of course, the consequence is no mystery. few words, minimal contact, awkward silence... while i have moved on with life, i was afraid to even say anything more to her. well, thankfully, things have sorted themselves out and yay, she's a real friend again!

haha, ok, i sound darn optimistic... but why live sadly when you can live a full life? :) just be thankful (whether or not you believe in God)!