distraught.

ah yes, feeling darn distraught after some recent events (more specifically, experiences with some people). seems weird i should use the word, 'distraught', when referring to social experience. when it comes to human relationships, it's probably more common to use 'disappointed' or 'with great dismay' (blah blah), but ya, i'm feeling really lost, confused and, to some extent, depressed now.

apparently, people whom i don't really get along with are treating me as a friend. if i were just neutral about it, maybe it's not such a bad thing - to have more friends, to have a wider social circle etc. but the problem is, i can't help but feel that i'm backstabbing the other person, by trying to act friendly when i'm not.

i'm sure some of us had some experience like that. just that we don't really talk about it, lest we harm another person's feeling. especially if the other person is really indulgent in the belief that you and him/her are really friends...

thing is, is it better to tell the person straight in the face that you don't fancy being friends with him/her? or, do you play along with him/her, to make everyone feel better? (obviously, if i could answer this question, i wouldn't be distraught... so, gimme some opinion leh...)

ah i want my citadels game set!