On what might have, or could have been...

Just my 2 cents' on this whole issue about spirit and stuff... Sorry ongzy for getting so flared up at that moment when I tagged... =S but yeah, it does get to your head sometimes...

ok, granted, if you really feel for your fac/group/school etc, the "spirit" will naturally be there... the passion you feel for your CCA/class/school, if indeed it is real and genuine, will spur you on to fight/strive for glory, be it personal or as a group.

to me there's no real need to GATHER "spirit"...

but what really galls me is the fact that people, in their aimless quest for this "spirit", go on to do whatever they can to achieve it, be it highlighting the stupid apparent "hatred" we have with another JC, Apollo vs Ares, etc, etc... even designing some stupid jacket so that we have a "common identity"... as if.

to me, at least, this spirit thing is very 做作, because to me, at the end of it all, 95% of those who rooted for it wouldn't believe in it, and 99% of those who are convinced about it will tend to forget about it eventually.

spirit, my ass. call me dispirited if you will, but i nvr set much store by this.

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on a separate issue, however, we (meaning my mother and my sister and brother and i) were discussing about the poor girl who drowned whilst retrieving her handphone blah blah blah, i'm sure most of us here know the story by now...

the conversation went something like this:

Sis: 哎哟，不会游泳还硬撑，要下水拿电话!

Elder Bro: boh bian ma, 她下去拿的时候，水还很浅, but suay suay 下去的时候雨就下的特别大...

Mum: (gist of her narrative was that there was this myth that every now and then this river (or canal, if you like) god would take one or two as sacrifices... it's the same river, everytime, the one from bukit batok to pandan, which, depending on whether you believe it or not, sounds arguable..)

Me: (if you know me well you'd have known that i'm quite careless, i've lost 3 phones so far... but that's not the point) boh bian ma, 怕被骂，才下去拿的！

Just then the stupid principal of her school said something about losing valuables means nothing compared to losing a life, in a voice that plainly told us that she didn't feel anything much... but that is again arguable... her parents said something to the same extent, which prompted me to say...

Me: neh, 如果不见了，回家，肯定 kena tekan! 死了才来说，不用紧, as if lor!

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point being that life is full of irony. isn't it poignant that when you're alive, people lament your loss of material wealth, but when you're gone, people voice their belief that life is more important than any kind of wealth?

is this just human nature playing its role? of us wanting the best of both worlds?...

sorry for bringing this up, but just what i've been thinking about the previous week and since i have nothing to do, just sharing it with you... sorry to those who think i'm making fun of the poor girl's death; i'm not, and i'm sincerely apologetic if this has affected any reader in any way (ie those who were directly/indirectly related to the girl)...